Whew!
Stress seems to devour my soul during the past few days. Well, what can I expect from a hellish summer schedule? I have three subjects that are not only demanding but also require rigorous study habits. I certainly miss my high school days, where I can sleep at eight and wake up at five and enjoy the morning—the gentle breeze, the crystalline dew slowly falling to the ground, and the warm kiss of the sun’s rays lightening up my face. How time flies… Now, I wake up at nine, reluctant to go to my 10 o’clock class and endure another boring lecture.
But I love challenges. I love that NIke slogan—impossible is nothing. Perhaps my autobiography can be aptly titled "Overcoming the Odds." I experienced a metamorphosis from a class-cutter-videogame addict-invisible child at home to a class valedictorian. That unforgettable chapter in my life, which helped me form the core of my guiding principle in life, is a testament to what I will be in the future if I do not lose focus and continue in fulfilling my dreams.
And so I am challenged. Not only by this ‘hell’ summer, but also by the last two years or so of my college life. My high school classmate recently asked me, "O ano, cum laude, magna, o summa?" I just smiled. The thoughts of reaping the awards of a fruitful academic career makes my heart flutter. But if getting to the honor roll becomes my ultimate challenge in life, I am simply a worthless individual that lives on illusions. No, I am challenged because the next two years or so would shape my future. As I move towards adulthood, questions will slowly be answered. Will I be a "perfect individual," locked within the doors of self-deceit and morbid narcissistic satisfaction? Or will I be an "imperfect individual"—one that gives out a hand and looks out in the world, ready anytime to make an impact. A catalyst for change, geared towards development—that’s what I want to be.
You know what, my brain challenges me now. I should take a rest na raw. =P
June 22nd, 2005 at 5:56 pm
Wahahaha! Dude, I feel your pain.